Current location when I wrote this: in a mall, bored out of my mind😪
Surrounded with a lot of people, I’ve never felt soooo alone. I’m in a gloomy (is this a word?) mood this past few days. I’m currently in a reading slump.
I look in front of me and see misses busy with putting makeup on their faces. They look so natural doing that and I thought why can’t I be like them? Someone who cares about their appearance.
On my right is a guy, sleeping. He looks tired, still wearing his uniform from work and I asked myself, “when was the last time I was so tired doing something, anything?”
At my left side, a lady admonishing her son(?) but still smiling. Am I ever gonna have kids? Will I be a great mother?
Everyone around me is in motion. I’ve been sitting here for a while now. Every 5 or 10 minutes, the people around me changes. They leave their sit and probably go back to their busy life. They’ll sit on the benches and rest for a while. Me? I’m sitting here trying to pass the time because I have nothing to do.
I try observing everyone and no one is doing the same thing that I’m doing: people-watching. I just feel so removed (can’t think of a better term) from life. I really need to find a job.
I need to stop comparing myself to others. Maybe I’m just on the wrong crowd. I haven’t met those kindred souls in person, because book bloggers/bibliophiles are my kind of kindred souls.
I’m being melodramatic, I know. Lol. And there’s a background song I don’t recognize, it sounds like an “oldies” or more probably a new song I’ve never heard of.
If I have enough money, I’ll start a bookstore business. My dream job is to be paid for reading books and sell amazing books to a lot of people. My thoughts are jumbled, sorry.✌
So, I’ll be ending this random musings of mine. I’m still bored by the way. 😁